For all
my complaints about genre, I have only published sparingly in it. With the
exception of poetry, and articles and columns which, in brevity, I earned
enough in commissions to merely supplement disability insurance, not compete
with nearly any of my previous salaries in relation to it, I managed to nibble the etch-a-sketch
around subsistence, after my minimal white collar dalliances. Some of those
dalliances failed due to my significant disappointment at not joining the ranks
of collegiate instructors, an indolence of ego. I spent all that time in
college learning how to think to join a press clipping service, which involved manually
clipping clients company logos out of newsprint. I wasn’t there very long,
still don’t really understand the utility of the organization as a contractor,
and then lasted in accounting firm proofreading a little longer. I did not live
at Riverside at the time, and ironically, if I had, commute stresses would have
been easier. By my early forties there was a glut of PhDs on the market. This
in no way indicated that it was incumbent upon me to close the door on teaching.
If I couldn’t handle special needs students who could, after all? But I was never entirely comfortable around
the myriad guises of human deformity, my skeletal ligament contortions included,
and there we have it. A new generation of the disabled community is coming forward,
and I do not even know what my mission entails anymore, rather like Philip K
Dick’s Isidore crafting a very vivid image of kibble for the mentally slow
androids on a post nuclear Earth. Dick’s work, beneath the surface, is less
about science in speculative fantasy, and more about biological depreciation.
It doesn’t translate particularly well on screen, though the Amazon Prime hires
from Hollywood diversifying the long dead, or decades dead, studio monopolies,
make an effort to validate Dick’s humanoid organisms ultimately overwhelmed by
defeat. Indeed, The Man in The High Castle is grand theater as an Original, but
it is not Dick’s original story. Couldn’t be and still be a series, although
Amazon does better with Electric Dreams.
When
we compare these to contemporary parables like Domain or the overly
ambitious series Counterpart as conceived by Justin Marks, what we see is an
alternate reality, transposed from individual, tortured psyches, into the macro
reality of the digital age. As a throw away forget our troubles DVD knockoff,
Domain was better than it had to be, manipulating its audience, deflating the
gravity of the surely soon to be dystopian end of ourselves into a finger
wagging cautionary tale about outsourcing the most malevolent American criminals
we’ve delineated into types, within our ever evolving psychoanalytic maturity. The
two women in their pods, the usual space milkshake providing nutritional
supplements, were the family annihilators, and the men? Spree killers, slashers,
doxed into yet another sociological experiment, conceptually worse than the
brutality which inspires it, ever advancing on A Clockwork Orange , which
was actually written as an absurdist morality tale, engaging readers with its
vibrant anger at Western mores and not knowing what to do with the tribalism to
which we’re beholden still in our evolution. I loved Counterpart, and praised
Marks accordingly from the other side, despite Baldwin’s décor lesbianism, and
the softball black botanist included as one of the origin managers for an unforeseen
quantum error. Are we all in an alternate time space continuum, happy or less
happy elsewhere? Do I try sucking tits and thereby, with Google’s approval,
earn a secure living? I barely have the requisite training to comprehend the
elegant computations and sign language of physics, but Greene’s affability
notwithstanding, it all seems a little too convenient, a more rational
juxtaposition of heaven and hell, so that we have a more palliative olive branch
to restrain ourselves from vengeance, like turning on the cruelty of the
oppressed. For nearly 12 years, Trudy Richardson tormented me, carte blanche,
for how I dealt with my bodily needs, and the only thing she achieved by
dragging my now widowed father into my tactics and methods, was virtually ensuring
I will have to be disposed of like toxic waste. I consider the death of this
woman to be a matter of political self defense, and I am hardly a seventeen
year old who may be the penultimate libertarian of our age.