Friday, December 29, 2017
Heron Shrike
Thursday, December 28, 2017
Grace Achieved Through Brutal Contingency
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
Despair, Numb toppings
I have no more reason to live, not after this round, recuperating and failing at the same time. None, and my body stresses may not leave me much choice, soon, whether I hope to save my published works or not. The grandmothers valiantly attempting to restore me cannot see my rapid before and after prolapse in on myself, so much so the little suicide plan in my head won't work to the extent I've regressed. It isn't that I want to die, I just know depending on blacks is tantamount to a fatality, and whites ain't gonna spare me. I know it already. I cannot be a good ideological libertarian being crushed by entitlements, and if I have more time than I believe, I am campaigning for euthanasia. I part company with all who think this marginalization maintains dignity, and when I do meet the case manager, I am going to end up pissing her, him, off.
Kindling Off the Plate
Monday, December 18, 2017
Rubies of Fixated Pollination
She was my favorite daughter, a wailing mother
One of the saddest and most irrelevant foreign spousal murders which could ever have been brought to the attention of the American viewer is that of Varkha Rani, a Hindi woman who, according to the dictates of caste and tradition, was a potential, then selected betrothal of Jasvir Ginday, former employee of the Royal Bank of Scotland. In the YouTube video uploaded amid the furor of the trial, there is an insert of her mother’s outcry, before the eye is drawn back to the celebratory and vivid costume of their wedding day, a still photo of which leads The Independent’s byline, Ginday’s mauve turban, Rani’s veil and dress of translucent pinks. Under the long serving terms of Narendra Modi, such a lavish assertion of Hindu identity is as much a post-colonial place card as a Muslim hijab, and might even be reassuring to classicists who find comfort in preserving these said traditions, if it wasn’t for the fact that this matchmaking ceremony was a façade. Ginday acquiesced to his mother’s matrimonial wishes to conceal a homosexual lifestyle which The United Kingdom’s ever burgeoning liberalism allowed him to pursue, and Rani, allegedly perplexed with Jasvir’s lack of desire for her, as the investigation reconstructed the timeline, discovers her husband’s ruse. Jasvir crushes her windpipe out of fear with a weapon of opportunity, then incinerates her body in a domestically purchased incinerator, pointedly referred to by presiding Judge John Warner as a “meticulous” plan for disposal. What it wasn’t was a particularly logical construct for not being outed, which is why it became a story with enough teeth to gain international notice, roiling through The Hindustan Times and other Indian outlets to earn a lede in the BBC, which aimed for a fall-from-grace approach, emphasizing Jasvir’s mugshot, purportedly with Varkha’s scratches on his face, indicative of her attempt to survive. Once court reporters had finished wringing their hands with this new wave pathological behavior, hardly in need of further sensationalizing, it then became a tawdry documentary reenactment, repackaged in mildly playful series like How (Not) to Kill Your Husband, whose staying power is reflective of an anodyne for the incredulous and discarded to rally around John Walsh.
Marriages
of appearance have been deployed as optimization commands for centuries. Henry VIII
turned the Mosaic concept of divorce into a mechanism of ridicule which
diminished imperial authority. The union of Charles and Diana made the
continued reign of Winsor problematic; Governor Schwarzenegger’s merger with
the Kennedy’s through Maria Shriver failed in terms of cementing a political
legacy, but these are about prominence and suspension of disbelief, whatever
questions they pose about the success of monogamy or its circumvention. If Jasvir
Ginday wanted a token heterosexual union to work, (it’s difficult to know) such
as that between Charles Laughton and Elsa Lanchester, the public at large can
still surmise, and has, that springing this on a nascent bride from the British
Empire’s territorial crown jewel was overwhelming, even cruel in terms of its
malignant narcissism. Killing Rani and then deliberately cremating her remains
because she reacted in hurt and repulsion only accentuated how such malignancy
escalates, leaving those with sympathy
for this young woman wondering if the penalty imposed, 21 years to life, wasn’t
this side of too lenient. Elsa Lanchester didn’t have the benefit of Rani’s
cell phone technology, but the devastation she expresses is as relatable as Varkha’s,
who didn’t have the benefit of time to absorb such a manipulative deceit
against her. The impetuosity of youth, the status of women in India in its
restive independence, these items are no excuse for the febrile impotency of
patriarchal insecurity burrowing itself in the undercurrent of social norms.
This case also provides ample proof that homosexual activists don’t have the
last word on the ever expansive progressive tent. Hinduism, by its very nature,
expresses a certain degree of fluidity, hence there was no Christian condemnation
waiting in the wings if this man had told mamma the truth. There may have been other
consequences brought about by familial conservative mindsets, betrayal,
disappointment, but none of that was worth the savagery of this “gay panic”.
Sociologists might look at this crime as a failure of assimilation between the
former ruling power and the nation it helped to equip once beyond the cataclysms
of the 20th century, but the failure may also lie with Britain’s
leftist radicalism. Two years after Jasvir Ginday ignited the media’s oft puritanical
mindset, in the opening year of Theresa May’s conservative Brexit government,
Gordon Semple died in Stefano Brizzi’s flat, in an even more grisly autoerotic
accident. How Brizzi squared his conscience in the limited evidence of life he
offered his prison wardens, in the year before his death in the winter of 17,
is between him and his troubled faith, but Semple was a constable, a
middle-aged man with a partner at home, who should have had some knowledge of
the seediness vice squads are still expected to contain, but there he was, on
CCTV, casually scrolling through Grindr, looking for a hook up. No safety net
in Andrew Sullivan’s extraordinary success with gay marriage here. Why should
there be? The sexual revolution has emphatically taken the closet off its
hinges.
Thursday, December 14, 2017
Viva Zurita!
Thank you Mr Woods. This of all days was just what I needed to here. Dec 5th diagnosed with Stage IV Mantle Cell Lymphoma. It is in all my lymph nodes spleen bone marrow and blood seems hopeless bu I believe in miracles— KathyB👠 (@BrandensteinKat) December 13, 2017
Wednesday, December 13, 2017
Shtako, Defiantly
The Trump presidency: tragedy or comedy? https://t.co/TdUbGvkXP0 pic.twitter.com/Z8v32GGVLu— Niall Ferguson (@nfergus) December 17, 2017
Tuesday, December 12, 2017
The Consequence of Bad Grooming Result in Hair Chaos
Monday, December 11, 2017
Robert Preston's Cloudburst, Joe Scarborough's Alarms
Tuesday, December 5, 2017
Elbow Curvatures, Cast Off
Cuba Gooding Jr’s Barrel Run Through a District Thoroughfare
The Fraudulent Familiar
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Back to Black in a Holy Land Apotheosis
Wednesday, November 29, 2017
Activity As Tolerated
If I was into this stiff upper lip business, like my former follower Mark, then I would just wade in with a High Castle analysis, in equal parts pernicious and praiseworthy of Rufus Sewell as John Smith, whose series son did the right thing, turning himself in to the American Reich to be destroyed due to his muscular dystrophy,
I almost followed suit, with a different diagnosis, almost, and ultimately may not have a choice. My shins are emaciated, like my outmoded hardware. My family is at war over the matter, and the assholes from Adult Protection Services are salivating at the bit to put me away, in the Belmont Avenue hellhole, but a few things are holding me off. Control, the right to say no, and a race to save my published work. I can blame this vendor, but only in part. The power chair isn't bad, whether or not he overcharged me. It drives well. I remain conflicted about keeping it. Adapting to it is something else. I was over ridden, by fearsome matrons in their 60's over replacing my furnishings with a hospital bed, can't use that either, my father, his sister, Debra Horne and Trudy Richardson, favorite niggers to hate, annihilated my personal effects, and I am virtually choking to death to lose the 52 year old West African immigrant keeping me alive. She is Muslim, hyper and ignorant as much as caring. We clash daily. She is rough and hurts: only when these ruthless Marxists do their final assessment can I lose Sarrin, if I choose. We all have to fail biologically-- but I just keep taking too many punches, and my ligaments are starting to buckle. Holding my weight, which just eight weeks ago I could manage, is now being contested. Arthritis. But I still have some fight, my hair matted beyond rescue, at the moment.
I lost approximately 18 social media accounts since October, in my semi-anguished outcry, perhaps rightly. Old invalids moaning, after all. Credit Austin for staying with me, along with some others, but I am a bit sore at Mark Antro. He has the right to drop what accounts he pleases, but I'm his ally and thought we were friends, and I mean friends. I am too battle scarred to have a cougar interest in him, but I support him. He seemed puzzled by what he claimed were my 'attacks'. What attacks? For me an attack is telling Paul Krugman he is a fucking fascist at heart. That's an attack.
I always respected Mark and defended him against his critics; having tuned down my woe meter, however, I gained 3 or 4, including, inexplicably, Ed Rogers. Unless I am in error, I remember Ed's more active political currency. I respect his voice, and in the revolving door of preference, followed him earlier, having dropped Jennifer Rubin. I only 'unfollowed' Ed as a traffic issue, tweeted a positive on his Trump tabloid piece. Voila. I've no idea why I've been so graced, and mentioned it to my novelist poet colleagues with astonishment, as only the Trinity knows if the universe has a contracted byline left for a vulgar Italian in her spastic frailty. Is a Principal calling Trump a moron insubordination? If it's merely academic, I tweeted to mogul man "to get his fucking act together". Nothing doing.
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
Flushed Cries of Distress
Monday, November 27, 2017
Carbon Dating
Thursday, November 23, 2017
Absorbed Maximale
Shadow Emissions From Brown Dwarfs
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
51/50, Aftermaths Up The Creek
Monday, October 30, 2017
Kapax
In recent days, my skills languishing because I allowed technical collapse to get ahead of me, I cried out to the former slum bishop of Buenos Aires as if I really did believe him as Santo Padre, while I cursed my mother's sister on Facebook with a level of blaspheme I usually reserve for racial animus . Few, if any of you. truly understand the despair of helplessness, and turn away, unless you yourself are in its thick: It isn't just age, it's the relentless cruelty against helplessness itself. I have been assaulted, physically, emotionally, since nine years of age, and no one looking at me knows how to square this. I coped, not always well, but coped, because I knew I did not need to depend on others as long as the wheelchair and body functioned together. This is, temporarily or not, gone. So I will face more abuse, and laugh cruelly. My choice, fine fellows, languish, or the determination of despair, not that berating myself over my Kevin Spacey miscue helps either.
I was sexually attracted to the star in his heyday, and in my rare twitter moments of being a shallow American, like the rest of social media's deplorable idiots, I gushed at his account "I love you!" It was a way of sleeping with my father, once removed.(Daddy and I are not on good terms, in real time.) I'd never tweet to Woods in that manner, and then Voila, we're in fagland again. I stopped following Spacey because House of Cards isn't relevant to our concerns, and still feel like a naive duped and sickened jackass, almost brazen enough to tweet a hint about killing perverts, which may have put me in Stone's territory, but didn't do it, as it may not long matter. The Usual Suspects did, if we dwell therein long enough, carve Spacey into a male amphibian cast that could be read as a parallel to Foster's on screen chameleons, but other roles, including American Beauty, made me see a heterosexual who emulated Jack Lemmon, and I feel betrayed.
My demented father's sister is the only one who has faith I'll rebuild. I don't, but another reason I hate in the life advocacy is because it diminishes the stature Spacey rightly earned for his twilight years. They media falsely baited Cary Grant in the same vein, but I never believed it, and his survivors threatened the tattles with a lawsuit.