Great Expectations

we're gonna keep comin at ya

I cannot write a post long enough to explain with what frequency case managers intertwined themselves in my life, whether vocationally, or mental health issues due to my mother, or in institutional rehabilitation, but Presbyterian Homes, from the time I moved into Riverside in 1994, virtually invented same sex marriage in relation to the frequency with which their managers and social workers disavowed my right to privacy, and I do not mean solely the current team. Debra Horne is, for lack of any other way to phrase it, a sad testament to the human condition when individuals with low IQ interbreed, and this is exactly why Presby hired her. Intimidating, high tan, Mississippi accent like bile in her throat I think she came here in a jean jumper in 05. Black. Bull. Dyke, just ahead of her tenants to wield her invisible baton. I did not know what I was setting myself up for with this shuffling minority matron, her hernia, lesbianistic overtones, nearly amalgam of the orderlies who abused me under Dr. Chance. After what I have been through in North Philadelphia, I carry no guilt about despising her, don't care a jot if mother's family is appalled, and this woman's cruel arrogance is a living rebuttal to whatever Jeffrey's treatise is on the right's collectivism. Minorities can be as morally corrosive as anyone else, and it used to be Debra I wanted to have punished, but that has since been upgraded. Debra's immediate superior has committed a criminal offense, and I'll see Trudy Richardson on the other side of a civil suit, or force Philadelphia's finest to mortally injure me, and one of you shall give my lifelong melancholy turned rogue a fine eulogy, I am sure. Mettle, spirit, and all that, even if there aren't people quite suited to human existence, people we'd be better off without.


But in 1986, I tried hard to be a good compliant tenant, nearly slept with the son of a reverend, and discovered identity politics, a righteous cause, in Jonathan Capehart's voice, to be nothing more than moral poison. I have always more or less enveloped myself in despondency. Some quadriplegics do better, some worse, and my intelligence, applied to my pain, makes me an existential threat-- my Senator's tolerance doesn't want to peer too deeply into my militancy which applauds him most of the time, and I'd stop Casey junior cold, not having anything to lose in the darkness of the unsaid, only made worse because, I know, intrinsically, my hourglass doesn't have too much quality sand left before the upper chamber metes out my allotment. Look at all this has taken out of me, the economics of appeasing "a fraternal contractor," who your taxes subsidizes to intentionally break *us* down. Some bloody system. I spent my savings cleaning this apartment. Not all of it, but a great deal went into Tim's pocket, or a cleaning service, then Karina. Now it has evaporated, and I have since been under constant threat because I don't want to be whored off again under welfare's sterling subcontractors. I've yet to hear any libertarian stampede, however, to run my vacuum, throw in a load of laundry. They've all got hard ons for block chain code.

The Spiritual Crisis of Climate Change

My second senator, son of the late, blithe, governor no one remembers, except in national memorial sentiment. I have avoided contacting the political scion of the western half of the state, which consists, in no particular order, of gun toting militia men, coal, hard line right wingers who'd pat me on the head, lasso me, and then stick me in the pig sty, asking me how I'd rate that environment over other forms of social constraint, and, of course, our infamous religious sects, the Mennonites and other dwindling Luddites, ah yes, the Amish, in my creative way around memory gap.

I only skimmed Casey's deft, polished, platform, left a comment on his Earth Day piece which probably puzzled whoever read it, but if I were to diagram, a town like Grantsville beats with Rick Santorum's heart. That it is now Casey's political base, while Toomey controls Philadelphia and the Southeast, is, well, skewered.

There is an inherent contradiction between the pressures of good environmental stewardship and radical egalitarian model for human rights, which capitalism takes care of through a social Darwinism once removed. Humanity cannot uphold the dignity of all and reverse its own climate change crisis at the same time. It isn't possible, which is why the left lies, religious authorities retain their cruelty through lack of competency, and aging individuals are hustled off with all the kindness in the world, and China will never micro-manage it all. Nor can I dissect a page view from UAE with any more speculation than the fact that I follow a blog from Morocco, just to keep an eye on things. Croatia, Ukraine, Turkey, 30 views from Turkey because I encapsulated Orhan's poet with a capture of understanding for doxology. I'm almost finished with Snow, and may just stop there, or not, but Bob junior apparently wants Al Gore's mantle, in less superlative fashion. I want an insurgency, an incompatible combination.