Small Catholic Sympathies

"I don't like lesbians. They are so heavy and humorless." -- the still young Goldie Hawn

I can imagine, in a faux empathy with the pedestrian Sally Quinn, feeling badly that the Vatican turned me away because I was a homily bulk of phlegm in a corroded power chair, and I suspect her reasoning on Benedict's resignation is something most observers of intrigue within the Holy See believe. The rigid German was JP2's second in command, after all, and under the anti-Warsaw Pact Vicar, pedophilia was a great sin to be forgiven, and this is where Sally drops the ball on Old World asceticism. Even in today's world, we need the attraction of pure orthodoxy, and conservative obstinacy in the Roman Catholic Church. The theology is nonsense, but so is the idea of a multiverse where the stuff in it is no more than a hologram of a two dimensional strip of data that is the same inside a black hole's gravitational field as well as outside of it. Even men like Denzel's Creasy can cling to hope in a saint's medallion, so how much less should be granted men of the collar who need to ejaculate and aim for covert intimacy? The monsters we create are no less human than you are yourselves, as much as you believe otherwise, and forgiveness is also part of that Roman authoritarian hierarchy.

Indeed, via this reasoning I should forgive the zealous fruitcake and freaky failed intern who identifies as male, fucking a half wit fat homosexual as fat and pallid as a giant mollusk, and I might have been able to do that had not they, and their culture of corruption, and self-hatred, contributed so much to the trauma I have battled. The side of my conscience that remembers the loving idealist I was might say I lacked compassion in letting a sick transvestite "have it," just short of his caretaker or the guard interfering, but I am weary of Erik taking my temperature in the cosmopolitan sense of acknowledging me; it has ceased any meaning short of being a sick joke, and I tire of watching this female man linger in useless waste. I need to leave it behind and contain it, respectively, try as I might to stop it from destroying others with the promise of future matriculation.

Catholicism, however, is a religion, and giving predatory priests up to secular imprisonment damages what the faith stands for. You do not see lawyers reading my blog rushing out to examine my case and extracting justice, do you? My independent living center burrows over its breach of conduct; excoriating pastors isn't going to change our universal tendency to paper over the corrosive nature of power.