Seasons In The Sun

We had joy we had fun-- Terry Jacks

Misconstrued email is the source of so much folly. This is the one thing I have not really examined with you, and it significantly shortened my life span. My neighbor hits a send all button to help a marginalized figure, who has his own footprint. I very briefly skimmed his post about taking himself off Social Security, and while I am no fan of entitlement strangulation, the consequences of indigence in a city like Philly is not the adventure of a graphic novel, but Mr. Tollen is presumably an ambulatory fellow.

I am not mad at Ed. *He just did not pause to think that a disenfranchised wheelchair user and a disenfranchised mental health consumer would not be able to accommodate each other when he (Ed) told me to contact Zach directly. That direct contact disappointed me and made me feel excluded. Zach gives small private talks about Joseph Campbell and Carl Jung, important but superseded figures. A small episode come and gone. I dealt with people like Zach every day under my salaried grant project, and Ed may follow my blog and skim my posts; he probably does the same for Zachary Tollen, but this does not mean we're getting through to each other, and I find that discouraging. 

The same confusion created a cyber EEOC case between Linda C Dezenski and myself, and the corrosive poison of my anger resides in the cost. Linda was embarrassed, faced demotion, and I was traumatized to the brink of institutional incarceration, and a crippling guaranteed federal debt which is driving me into myocardial infarction or an early stroke. Even if my political representatives investigate, no one is going to restrict Linda's economic viability for prior bad acts, and that due to tokenism. She is a prescriptive and compliant public figure who humiliated me and countless others, but the people that run this state know a radioactive problem when they see it.

Move on? It would be nice, but my health is failing, and I can't leave a landlord also guilty of recurring criminal negligence. Consider yourself lucky.

*As I indicated yesterday, however, the implication of bringing Zach and myself into each other's sphere of influence is for me only an additional source of shame and annoyance. I am trying to climb back up, not give into Mr. Tollen's functional limitations. A thanks but no thank you situation.